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(2/25/2012 9:48:08 PM)
RE:Lenten Reflections from CATHOLICISM, Week 1
In responding to question number 2, I find myself realizing that I am at a point where I have longed to be -- denying self. I have been fighting an eating disorder for more than thirty years -- so much so that it has become a large part of my self. And I have long known that, more than any other sin, it is this one that has created the distance in my relationship with my Lord. I have confessed it repeatedly for years. I have sought medical attention. I was, several years ago, freed of it suddenly and for almost a year, but it returned, and I knew it was always part of me.
But I have been reading and praying and studying more and more, and I know that --willingly or not -- I made food my idol and prayed that God would accept that. I am appalled to even see these words in print, but your question allowed me to see that my decision for Christ today affirms that I claim Him as my Lord and God and accept the fact that He claimed me at my baptism. And it affirms that I now negate my food addiction and the power that particular demon has wielded in my life these past 35 years.
It is that simple -- now all I need to do is to remember and live that, to stop falling back on the rationalization that it is a disease, and to claim the healing Christ offered while He walked this earth, and still offers now, if we but choose to accept and believe.
I do choose Christ.
Amen,and thank you for this forum.